Today I am on the upswing of what felt like a very long down swing. Usually my low times last a day, maybe two, but this time felt like it was never going to end. It did, thank goodness, and I'm feeling fantastic today. I even did my hair thankyouverymuch. Though I did spend a good amount of time just lying in bed yesterday, looking for the motivation to carry on. I need something to hope for, man. Something to work toward. I know I've got my babies, and I love 'em like crazy, but they are the longest project with the least visible results, I gotta say. Though they do light up the quiet moments so perfectly. While I was feeling particularly frazzled the other day, I dropped some salad on the floor and just had. to. get. out of there. And when I came back, Oliver was kneeling on the floor, sweetly picking up the pieces and putting them back. "It's okay, Mommy." he said. "You're sweet and you're beautiful because I love you." He is my best friend, that kid.
But today is a new day. Today is a different day, a good day. I can't wait for today. The sun is shining, the wind has died down, and I get to leave the house today (yay!) to go see Sarah the therapist (Sarapist?) in the city and pick up some much needed groceries. More needed than that, I would say, is a date night out, just Matt and I. I honestly - no word of a lie - can't remember the last time we had one and it's making me crazy.
The bananas are going bad so I made some paleo banana muffins this morning, and have spent most of the rest of the time dancing around to old Backstreet Boys jams because today is a new day. Today is a different day, a good day. I can't wait for today.
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