With less than a week to go before our new little one arrives, I'm trying to knock some things off my list. There are a few blog posts I'd really like to get done before this babe comes because quite frankly I am going to fall off the face of the earth when it does. One thing I did before Theodore was born was write a letter to Oliver reminding him how special he is to me. I enjoyed writing it and still enjoy reading it to this day. So since I've got to start prioritizing what with the limited time I have left before my world gets turned upside down again, I'm going to take this opportunity to write a letter to my two sweet little earthside boys.
My precious treasures,
Very soon we will be welcoming another little adventure into our lives, and I know you're both so excited. Oliver, you're going to be a wonderful helper and great support because you're so smart and skilled at problem solving. You also always know exactly what my heart needs and take such good care of me. Theodore, you are going to remind me how important I am, with your warm and immersive love. You're going to hold my face in your hands and tell me I'm "so wonderful" and that you "love me sooooo mush." and I can't wait to see you with your new baby brother or sister. You are the two most magical things I have ever encountered in this life and when I'm not with you my heart craves you intensely.
Always know how important you both are to me. I know I'll be distracted for a little while, I know my arms will be fuller than you're used to. I won't be able to come whenever you call "Mommy, look! Come see this!" but I will still come. And I will want to come look, and come see, and experience the world in the unique way that you do. I only want to live in that world, the one you see through your eyes, for the rest of my life.
Thank you for teaching me who I am. Thank you for showing me how to love and be loved. Thank you for teaching me what's truly important in this life and for giving me the purpose that drives every decision I make. You are the reason I get out of bed in the morning, you are the reason the hard times don't destroy me. You make me a better person and you're just so beautiful.
Writing this letter is making me emotional, so I'm going to have to wrap it up and keep it short and simple. That's how we all ought to live anyway. What I want to make sure you know and always remember is that the most important thing in this life is kindness. Please always be kind. Be kind to your fellow human beings, to animals, to trees and bugs and everything and everyone. Be kind, and be smart. Fill your heart with knowledge, learn everything you can about everything there is and collect knowledge and wisdom like beautiful pearls. Science is so important, cleverness is so important. Be gentle. Be gentle with yourself and others, and take things slowly because everything tastes so much sweeter and feels so much better when you savour it and fully enjoy it and allow it to saturate you and become part of you. You will find that life is so much richer when you can be content and grateful for what you have right now, right this minute, instead of constantly craving whatever is coming next. All we have is right now, these people around us, this moment and this place and this time and if you can slow down and enjoy it and just be grateful for every little piece of it, this life becomes the greatest adventure and the most beautiful gift.
I love you both so much, and I'm so proud of the people you're becoming. Your pure hearts and incredibly loving natures are my single greatest achievements in this life and I'm so so grateful to be your mom.
All of my love in the busy days ahead,
Mama
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