I had a photo session at St. Vital Park about a week ago and I brought all my men with me. The park is always swarming with geese and ducks, and my little guys can't get enough wild animal exposure. Swarming is the right word, too, because I'm definitely a bit afraid of them and always feel like they're going to try and attack me. I wish I could say I know they won't, but honestly I don't know. I don't know that, they're so big and fat and unpredictable, with their ominous beaks and dark beady eyes. Fortunately I'm able to put my weird fears aside when I'm around these two nature nuts, since I don't want them to share in my unjustified uncertainty. It's all still just magic to them, and in that way I can sort of see the magic in it too. The silly way the ducks turn 90 degrees straight down into the water is actually completely hilarious.
My boys shine in the sun in a much more magical way, though. The fresh air and dirt bring out the sparkles in their spirits and make me fall in love with them in a brilliant new way every time. I wonder if there will ever come a day that I don't fall head-over-heels in love with these little elves all over again. It's such a different sort of love. The love I have for Matt is a love I choose and work for, and it's rewarding and challenging at the same time. But the love I have for these boys is beyond me, it has nothing to do with a choice or any sort of effort, it just happens to me and consumes me and overrides my senses without my input at all. It's enough to make me bubble up with laughter or just weep uncontrollably. Let's hope the two don't happen at the same time, and if they do, at least not in public.
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