06.22.15

I've been gone for two weeks, people. Two weeks! And it's been basically torture. My computer crashed. All the computers were out of commission. My main computer is still at the shop being figured out, and with it it holds my entire psychological wellbeing. I'm so crippled by this that I basically have to block it out of my head, for fear of the anxiety just killing me. I have to pretend that my computer with every photo taken this year on it is NOT having its hard drive cleared. I have to just hope that all of the files will be recovered. I'm overcome with grief over this and if I linger on it too long I'm going to become an emotional mess, so, moving on!

I'm on my laptop right now, because I can't be kept from blogging any more. This therapy is so unbelievably important to my routine and, basically, my perspective on my entire life. It drives me forward and shines a much needed light on the joys and blessings that surround me and it's been a dark. two. weeks. I just can't even.

Over the weekend Matt was diligently at work on our shed outside, so we'll finally have a place to store all of our junk. We don't have a garage, so until now our lawn mower, wheel barrows, and all other outdoor equipment have just been sitting out, willy-nilly, and we're finally going to have a place to store them, thank goodness. Oliver was outside helping him almost the entire time, in his little muscle shirt and "work gloves" which are just fingerless winter gloves. Don't tell him. Father's day was low key because Matt got to celebrate the previous weekend with a bunch of guy friends. They all went golfing together, and then out for supper, and then for an evening swim. So for actual Father's Day it was just outside work day, really, which is also pretty fulfilling for Matt.

Concentrated renovation or upkeep efforts are tough for me, since it means I have to do a lot of work myself, and keep an eye on the kids just as much as on weekdays, but I know that if we just buckle down and get a bunch of stuff done at once, we'll be able to relax again. I feel like the list of things to do around here just keeps getting longer, but I have to remind myself that I don't need to be doing all of them all the time. Just because I'm not doing something right now, doesn't mean I'll never do it. Great things take time, and I have time.